Being all you can be

I’m in this for the renewed sense of well being and for seeing how much I can actually do.  I was granted a new valve and it would seem irresponsible not to take care of it. 

I’ve also been thinking about healing – not the contemporary kind as in ‘let the healing begin’ but physical healing. After all, the surgery was a big deal. Cut right through the sternum and into the heart itself. So the heart had to heal, the sternum, the muscles and skin.

And the heart had to remember how to maintain a certain amount of blood pressure, how to beat regularly. And I had to learn how to walk without losing my breath. Healing has so many levels, issues, significances.

I was thinking about the group of people I was with – how many stories, how much suffering, how many walks of life they all represent.  And each day someone is new and someone else finishes and goes home.

This is phase 2. Phase 1 was getting back on your feet. Phase 2 let’s you heal.  Phase 3 is maintenance. I am in phase 2. Next week they will repeat my stress test. I will see the difference between before and after the surgery. Later the test will be repeated one more time. I will see my improvement from this point.

Healing.  Getting better, improving. Being all one can be. Finding out what that is.  Rehab is such an opportunity on so many levels.