About By Barbara McMillen, on September 19th, 2011 
I’m dividing this site up. It’s too big, it’s a mish mash, it’s without direction. I’m opening a new blog for my images at http://mobiledelight.wordpress.com/
a new blog for recipes at http://theambientchef.blogspot.com/
and I am re directioning ‘Just Sayin’ to topics related to transitions and changes in life as we grow older. But make no mistake, this is not going to become an over 50′s blog.
Art By Barbara McMillen, on July 25th, 2011 The crowd was all ages many many people, a landscape of people beneath a broiling sky – lightening bolts slamming down about the laddered crews high above us tending speakers and lights.
Remember, McCartney is 70. Youthful, healthy looking, having fun, belting out that music. Folks were impressed. He constantly switched guitars – each with a history, a ukulele from a 1940′s ukulele player, another a gift from Jimmy Hendrix … history handing over and back. Thunder was hidden in the rumbles of the bass … even our seats vibrated beneath us. Live and Let Die was filled with fire and fireworks. The crowd was brought to its feet. Wild!
Jude, USSR, Yesterday … an overwhelming evening of great talent and entertainment. I stood when we sang All We are Saying. It was emotional for me. Some young folks held candles as though looking for meaning others held cameras making the moment.
Afterwards, one young person, about 20, said he was glad it wasn’t about politics, that ‘these poeple’ often inject politics. And I held my curiosity to myself remembering the early music and the early days of Revolution in this country. The Beatles were about Revolution and Civil Rights. They were about Peace and Love.
But I kept that to myself. Toward the end of the concert we were singing Paul’s lyrics and he was listening … applauding, orchestrating our voices. I can’t imagine how that felt to him – generations spanning years horizontally and vertically …
his music with so much meaning for all of us. What a night.
About By Barbara McMillen, on January 2nd, 2011 Regarding the NYT article “Boomers Hit New Self-Absorption Milestone: Age 65”
I’m a baby boomer. On July 18 2011 I and 10,000 other baby boomers will turn 65 (on that particular day). NYT’s says we are the ‘self-absorbed, botox’ users. I say this in the interest of full disclosure.
Vocabulary. Way for the young to take down a generation of folks – use a vocabulary that dismisses them … all of them. Turn them into a selfish, needy pile of trash. Then turn on the death panels. Get rid of them.
How I remember it? A brother who was a marine in Vietnam. A sister in the Navy. Another brother in the army. A sister who is the sibling guardian of a disabled brother. I worked as an Appalachian Volunteer, then a university professor. My friends worked in the Peace Corps and VISTA. We all worked to end the war, bring peace, end presidential corruption. We WERE activism.
I remember the public assassinations of the president, John Kennedy, a presidential candidate, Robert Kennedy, the great moral leader in our times, Martin Luther King, Junior.
Under the work of our generation Laws became inclusive, we worked for education for people with disabilities, Civil Rights, feeding the poor. We expanded music, introduced rock n’ roll, opened ourselves to globalism, computing and medicine. Wrote poetry, novels, newspapers. Today we care for our parents, fund our children’s lives, care for our grandchildren. Some of raise our grandchildren.
Ok, we had Woodstock. But what the heck?
I would willingly pass the light to the next generation, challenge them to accomplish as much, to care as much. But as long as I’m being considered a burden and candidate for the death panel …
I’m holding onto my voice and my rights as a human being.
Which I am. Which all of us baby boomers are. Which, in fact, we all are.
Don’t forget it.
Contemporary Events By Barbara McMillen, on December 14th, 2010 Listened to this today in the car … except for the voting thing, why isn’t this relevant today? :
Well the Western World is in danger We the People have become like strangers Taking polls and opinions while the fabric decays For the greed of the few how much the innocent pay And the children are watching, you can hear how they pray
And you tell me over and over and over again my friend How you don’t believe we’re still on the eve of destruction
Think of this green Earth, a tropical rainforest And take a look around to the Sahara Desert We wanna cut it down, burn it to the ground leave barren and waste Till there’s no room for living, animals, rivers or lakes And there’s nothing to stop it but a miracle of faith
And you tell me over and over and over again my friend Said you don’t believe we’re still on the eve of destruction Now you don’t believe we’re still on the eve of destruction
I know you understand what we’re trying to say Can’t you see the madness that’s led up to today? We believe it’s time for a change, for a new golden age Where the business’ life runs in harmony with nature For nature reflects the beauty within ourselves And this changin’ attitude would ring out the Liberty Bells For the hungry and the homeless and the helpless as well
And you tell me over and over and over again my friend Saying you don’t believe we’re still on the eve of destruction Oh you don’t believe we’re still on the eve of destruction
At the source of silence, we’ll sings songs of creation Transcending the boundaries of our soul’s imagination You can’t twist the truth, it knows no regulation Cuz the truth is in Love, Freedom and Cooperation Let there be peace in your heart, that’s all right, that’s where it starts Let there be peace tonight, in all the Nations For the music of life is in our last deliberation?
And you tell me over and over and over again my friend Saying you don’t believe we’re still on the eve of destruction No, no, no you don’t believe we’re on the eve of destruction
Art By Barbara McMillen, on October 25th, 2010 Odd to begin a discussion of one movie with another but here goes: 1997. Steven Spielberg. “Close Encounters of the Third Kind” (CE3K) was hailed as a breakthrough film characterizing other worldly creatures as not so alien, not so scary, creatures of beauty and love. The proper attitude toward these creatures is wonderment. The end of the film shows us the three main characters, a boy, a man and a woman who made the trek to the mother ship. The film bathes them in light, awash with music as tall slender creatures mingle among them.
Forward to “Hereafter” 2010. Clint Eastwood. AND Spielberg (via DreamStudios) as three characters make their trek to discover what awaits them (us) after we die. Weightless, tall, thin characters awash in light call out, shadowy but not frightening. The film disappoints many as death is characterized not as something out of ‘The Sixth Sense’ but as something that surrounds life; a consciousness into which we all dissipate.
Three characters are called and independently of each other arrive in one spot to tell a tale, to receive authentication, to be released from the agonizing hold of death’s mystery. The story is told under a Dickensian cloud of the mundane, nasty brutish and short lives we lead that can be transcended once we understand the vision of death, forgiveness, and weightlessness (the body thrown off).
My mention of Dickens is not arbitrary as Dickens is referenced in the film, his house and office are visited and his words comfort.
One character, a psychic, is ravaged by remnants of a comorbid brain/spinal condition from which he suffered as a child, another nearly drowned in the tsunami and is plagued by visions of her near death experience, and a third has to make himself whole after the death of his twin. “CE3K” brings tortured characters out of lives they little understand. “Hereafter” (through knowledge) marks its characters, and each having what another needs, saves the other. Person to person, Scrooges finding salvation in love and charity.
The movie is not what you may think. It is not a Halloween thriller. It is not even an actual retelling of “CE3K” replacing creatures from another world with death. But, as “CE3K” took a new look at alien life, “Hereafter” sees the Hereafter as life’s extension. Not scary, not gory. Simply release and forgiveness. Here & After
Contemporary Events By Barbara McMillen, on October 9th, 2010 For Discussion
Examining the cliche of the internet being the great leveler: there are many sick people on the internet.
I don’t mean “sicko”, I mean sick. People who can’t talk, people who can’t see or walk or move, yet people who CAN think and have found a way to participate in a world where people who are without these issues also participate. The internet is a great leveler. We can all communicate on a level playing field.
At the same time, we can also pretend to be the same … bodiless, minds occupying avatars …. we can ‘look’ like anything we imagine ourselves to be, like whatever we wish to project ourselves to be and in some areas of the internet we can live the life we secretly wish we could lead.
These are Virtual places like “ Second Life“, for example, within which our bodies can be young, wherein we can be wealthy, wherein we can be seduced away from reality. I have a friend who is divorcing his wife because of a ‘virtual’ affair she is having in “Second Life”.
And thus, the real world and the virtual world cross in consequences.
When we were all first trying the internet out (1995, 1994?) the internet existed ‘up there’ or ‘out there.’ It was filled with web pages ‘about me’ or pages that were a prayer (“To my mother on the anniversary of her death”) or pages that were torrents of rage (“To my EX, The Bitch”).
So I was thinking again about the film, “Social Network” and what happens when people with great brains and little social and/or emotional maturity can live out their dreams of revenge … the kind of social/emotional immaturity some teenagers have who build their self-esteem by mocking and hurting others, or who rid themselves of anger by using the ‘virtual’ world where anger is virtual and not real …. to hurt others (whose presence is virtual) and, hence, end up rating women against various farm animals, or posting voyeuristic stolen moments of an individual’s sex life.
Because unlike reality, the internet is all virtual and there are no rules. But say what you will, reality does come to the land ‘up there’. There’s a saying: ‘Your right to express yourself ends where your fist touches my nose’. The playing field may be level but the players aren’t.
So let’s say the internet is a gun. In the U.S. everyone is not only allowed to have a gun but has a right to one (you’d think they’d be free, wouldn’t you?).
It isn’t the gun that kills people (some argue) it’s people who kill people. What are the rules? Well, if you hurt someone with a gun but didn’t know the person had a bad heart and so the person died of a heart attack … well, you’re still guilty of killing that person. Because your victims are your victims. They come as they are. If you hadn’t shot him or her, they wouldn’t have died.
And if you use the internet to attack someone and if your victim kills him or herself as a consequence of your attack, if the victim has a weak and vulnerable psyche, it’s still your fault. The rules of reality apply. They apply. The internet isn’t the stage for playing out freedom of speech which comes across as freedom to say anything you want. The internet is a weapon as much as it’s a prayer.
Doesn’t matter that you didn’t know it was loaded.
Art By Barbara McMillen, on October 3rd, 2010
 Social Network
Saw ‘Social Network’ tonight and thought my 140 Twitter Post wouldn’t work for this although I do think I can do a short (quick reading) argument or at, at least, introduce a short discussion theme for the movie.
Whatever we know about the development of (the) Facebook, our knowledge of the reality of that development distracts us from understanding what the movie itself is doing; so is the film’s characterization of Zuckerberg if we know Zuckerberg. In this light, I’m glad the film led to a nervous rich man’s contribution to a New Jersey inner city school. Nevertheless,
in movie terms, the topic is ‘What is a social network” and the social network is Harvard: white blue bloods in their private Final Clubs, their Harvard alumni inner networks, their traditional WASP social networks. With Zuckerberg, that traditional network faces a technology that spawns aggressive intelligent non-WASPs into using their talents to develop a new counter/social network.
That network, the Technology Network, purchases the non-WASP (i.e.Zuckerberg) one up-man-ship of his Harvard (tradition) brethren. He owns the network. He created the club to which others wish to belong.
At the same time, the product or technology houseing that network, Facebook, lures the attention of non-traditional, smart white sociopaths who also challenge the old boy networks (Napster).
Zuckerberg’s product is caught between both forces.
Emotionally or symbolically what’s going on? The character, Zuckerberg, uses his brainy property to fight for his rights and, from his point of view, those rights include a place in the Final Club. At the same time, the WASPs use his talents while keeping him outside that social network. A significant scene is one in which Zuckerberg is handed a sandwich in the outer portals of the club to which he’d like to belong while being offered a job to program an idea for some of the members.
This is a growing up movie, a self realization movie. The story that carries it is entertaining as well as complex – and, in fact, so complex that Aaron Sorkin deserves congratulations for being able to express all that insider-complexity in a way that allows us non programers to relate both to the creation of Facebook but also to a central character to whom others in *his* real life have been unable to relate.
I have a programmer <waves @swhitely) friend on Twitter who feared the movie might be too geeky. He cleverly and wonderfully realized that programming language is used to dramatize the central theme: outsider-insider authentication. But I, a non-programmer, never noticed the specific use of programming language chosen to dramatize the movie; which means, my programming friend was able to see the significance of the technological details of the language and I never noticed them. The significance? The programming language details were an amplification of the film’s theme but not a distraction from it.
Good movie, Folks. Detailed, beautifully edited, young person story. Human being story. Finding oneself. Been There. We all Have to Do that.
We might consider why and how women find their way into the movie. And, we might consider why there are no losers (everyone gets paid off including the WASPs) except Zuckerberg, the central character, who is left hitting the page reload button multiple times waiting for an acceptance of his Facebook request to ‘friend’ a former girlfriend.
Thumbs up.
Just Sayin' By Barbara McMillen, on September 17th, 2010  Matisse The Conversation
I had dinner last night with a friend when the topic of Apple’s ‘Face to Face’ came up. It was an easy conversation over wine – lively, eyes dancing from topic to topic in emphasis or explanation.
Of course, ‘Face to Face’ led to referencing Skype and the fun of the first time call to someone who also had a camera set up. I remembered my son calling us via Skype while in Croatia. He introduced us to his mother-in-law. At one point he carried his laptop about the hotel giving us a sense of where he was. Skype was invaluable for that experience.
Then, I noted an interesting decline in the venue over time. It goes something like this:
The first call is made and two people giggle when first actually seeing each other. Sometimes they turn the computer screen every which way to share their surroundings but soon the conversation is a conversation. The eyes search for each other on the screen trying to lock into each other’s gaze. It doesn’t happen. The eye to eye thing, anyway. So the eyes move about the desk, stare into the camera, gaze about the area surrounding the screen and soon the eyes aren’t looking at the screen at all …
and we’re back to, basically, a phone call. In other words something is missing when the eyes cannot lock on each other. The mind wanders, the focus is lost.
In the end we agreed that, though novel, the ‘Face to Face’ didn’t add much to the conversation beyond initial novelty. Conversations in person really do rely on eye contact and that valuable portion of conversation is lost on camera. Even though we are ‘Face to Face.’
About By Barbara McMillen, on September 4th, 2010 I started pottery for about 2 years 3 years ago, then quit. Last week a fine arts fair came to town and the professional potters had their ware everywhere. I couldn’t keep away from the pots and couldn’t resist running my hands together against the sides, pulling upward, feeling the ridges of another potter’s hands. I’m thinking about going back. Here are a few takes of my early pots. A bit sad but still good enough to explore further?
Just Sayin' By Barbara McMillen, on August 26th, 2010
 We have another mouse. With a Chesapeake, maybe Canadian, ‘ou’ my mother used to laugh saying, ‘There’s a moose in the hoose get it oot.’ Only she took them out like murderers and thieves, literally. Mouse trap. Cheese and squeeze is what we called it. Ew.
So, nowadays, I’m older but still squeamish. I’m old enough to buy my own mousetrap, one that doesn’t require we hire blood spatter analysts and CSI’s with yellow tape.
This trap is black, with cheese inside its long hallway. Think of a snake’s mouth – the long walk in. Only with this trap, the mouse is caught but not killed:
Husband grabs the trap once it’s shut (meaning the mouse is actually in there and Barb doesn’t touch it) and walks the trap to the way-back letting the mouse escape to the creek.
Last night, before sleep, entering my own darkness, I imagined our little community of mice whispering,
elaborating on their own miracle science: of a special moon of cheese in the darkness lighting the entrance to a Black Hole which, when entered, transports you, miraculously, to the creek. Miraculously.
From here. To There.
Just sayin’
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Just Sayin’ "Just Sayin'" As an expression is most often used at the end of a rant or at the end of a suggestion ameliorating a hot pitch with a shrug and an I don't care. Of course the speaker cares but in the span of life she'd rather point out the issue than make a life's crusade out of it. Not that a life's crusade couldn't be merited and not that the thing itself isn't a real pita but, really, one has to move on. "Just sayin'"
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